It is snowing again outside. Usually you would find me complaining on end about the snowy winter here in Aomori. If you were in my car, you would be bombarded with my sarcastic remarks at every turn for every driver. I would be cursing and yelling about how much the weather stinks. As much fun as that is for me (and my friend Steve; he finds humor in my rants when I drive…in the snow), the miserable dreary weather looks different to me today.

I have always known that I am blessed. I feel fortunate that I have led a fruitful life spiritually, emotionally, and physically, no matter how difficult it has seemed. My journey to Japan, as I have stated so many times, is in large portion a journey of self-reflection and personal wisdom. I came here not only because I had the desire to learn about this culture and see far off places, but also because I sought out detachment and solitude. In correlation with my last entry, I was looking to apply many lessons I have learned, and to balance the outside with the inside. The first 6 months were extremely difficult. I spent my time purging old habits, and even though I sought out isolation for clarity, it was hard to be so far away from my loved ones. Despite the vicissitude of my experience, I learned so much… It shows that life is an ever present lesson, and no, we do not get a break. Life is built on teachable moments, whether we choose to acknowledge them or not. Some of those lessons were unexpected for me, but this has made me all the richer…
So, why the retrospection?
I believe that it is equally as important to express our happiness as well as our plight. I had been trying for years to put myself together, in a healthy, genuine way. I struggled with living in subjection. I always envisioned myself living in a certain manner, but I could never achieve this life style, regardless of how wonderful my finances, emotional situations, or personal motivation was. Being here though, has provided me with the necessary concoction of ingredients needed for personal success. I am experiencing positive feelings that I have felt before but never in combination with each other. I am living in a way that I had only hoped for. I am aware that there are obstacles in my life, but I accept that.
I like where I am right now.
I am inner peace (because I cannot posses it, I can only be it.)

I like noting the moments as they pass.

When we realize that we are ruled by thought,
When we empower ourselves, and let go…
I know that I have the tools to take this with me…
Even when it snows.
Many Thanks…